eating real food

so i received my diet analysis.
i've been sitting on the analysis, the suggestion and the meal plan. it was beautiful. it resonated with where i am right now with eating.

my meal plan included sweets, whole grain bread and rice.

i have to admit, i try to shy away from those items. i haven't had a good relationship with them...but...then i remember that i did. when i first joined weight watchers i really followed the program. you can eat what you want, in moderation. and i did. i would fill up on fruits, veggies, dairy and whole grains and if i had some points, i'd enjoy a little snack.

fast forward to know, it's sometimes easier to cut out carbs and sweets. sometimes i like to do it just because i like that type of discipline. it's sick. i've gone a year without chocolate. i recently did around 8 months. etc.

but all that did was create a really bad relationship with those types of food. yes, i've learned that there are foods that i would put in the trigger category. having them in my house will be a disaster - cookie dough and cadberry eggs. i'm done. but, i never learned what was going on with my relationship with those foods. those foods were off-limits but they weren't inherently bad. in excess bad...in moderation alright....good, whole versions of those things...even better.

my emotions were the issue that i needed to look at more closely. so as i've waited for my food analysis, i began to see what was going on with my emotions. and i got my food plan, and i have to admit, i was a little nervous. but she explained it so well.

when i'm not getting enough whole grains, healthy fat, fruits and vegetables, i will eat food that has empty calories. duh. it makes sense.

if i'm eating a light lunch and saving my WW points, ofcourse it's easier for me to blow those points on food that won't actually fuel my body.

so this week i'm focusing on the following:

• enjoying and savoring my food
• not eating when i'm not hungry
• whole, natural and real food
• having a healthy relationship with food
• feeling my emotions and not numbing them