Sunday, June 27, 2010

My journey...ups and downs

One of my friends posted a blog about experiencing a health plateau. If you look through some of my older posts from three years ago..you'll notice the shift of some my blog posts.

I had gotten very close to my goal weight, I was ten pounds away from losing some 97 pounds. I was on top of the world, but the last ten pounds were slipping through my fingers. At that time I couldn't name what was going on with me.

In that year of losing weight I had people commenting on my weight like never before, I had found new confidence, I was wearing new clothes, I got lots of stars and prizes at Weight Watchers. But then everything that I had been doing didn't seem to work anymore. It actually felt like my body was fighting against me and it was totally unfair.

Looking back at that time I wish I had taken a moment to really celebrate what I had accomplished beyond the scale. I lost my confidence as I actually had attached it to the number on the scale. I had put so much emphasis on the weight that I stopped paying attention to my emotions. I love WW and all that it has taught me, I love counting points/calories/portions, but what's more important for me and my health is paying attention to my emotions. There was a reason that I had gotten to 230 + pounds and that reason was still there in a girl who was almost 100 pounds lighter.

This part of my health journey is different...most of the changes I've seen have been internal and feel foundational. I encourage anyone who is struggling with a plateau to listen to their bodies...what is actually happening, what can you celebrate. Sometimes I got so involved in the end result of weight loss that I forgot that the most important part of the journey is the process and being present in it. That's life.

You got this!

3 comments:

Chris Wolfgang said...

I need to tell you that your blog is such an encouragement every time. I'm struggling w my own health issues now, and it's reassuring to know your blog(s) will always have encouragement, never condemnation or militant challenge.

JaraBeara said...

Aw thanks for your kind comment. I've been involved with too many 'health advice' pieces that are condemning, guilt driven and grace-less, times must change :)

fraziertoo said...

Thank you for this J. :-) I am celebrating the other victories I've had in this past year. Fitting into those size 10 jeans when I wore a size 20 a year ago is kinda nice.