heaving. heavy.

my steps are heavier than usual. my legs feel like lead. but not from running.

but from hours, minutes, seconds that seem to multiply their weight by two.

my thoughts get lost in thoughts. my questions get stuck behind doubts.

heavy eyelids, eyes with tears. burning. salt water.

i didn't put this week on my back correctly. it hurts. seems imbalanced. it shifts.

and i sit down. elbows on knees. face in hands.