a couple of times i've run into my weight watchers leader at the grocery store. i usually do a quick look at my cart and sigh, with relief. my grocery cart is typically full of veggies and faux meat. and probably some 100 calorie packet.
now last week i had one of those weeks. and yes, food is my comfort (do i get credit for that one?), i ordered a chocolate chip cookie for mandy and a LOWfat (it makes me feel better) chocolate chip banana bread for myself. as i began to nibble at the cookie i looked up just in time to see....
her.
my weight watchers leader. i panicked like i was getting caught skipping chapel and hanging out at sonic in nicholasville (i'd never do that). i pushed the cookie all the way to mandy. and buried myself into my book. she came in. i didn't look up. she left.
so i couldn't go to the meeting this saturday. i was too afraid.
and then i started thinking. i can't be afraid. i don't want to be afraid when it comes to my health and being accountable to it. (yes, i can do it)
this past month i've been training for a half-marathon. it's been really important for me to focus on something that is good for my health and not focus on the numbers on the scale.
this morning rachelle, mimi and i ran 7 miles in iowa on the wabash trail. it was an exhilarating moment. i realized i was in shape. i decided that if i could run these miles this week that i'd officially register for the race. i have a month and five days to keep at it.
in that time i hope to:
- continue watching my alcohol intake - i can barely run the day after enjoying one too many glasses of wine
- continue finding my way to full health
- kickstart these last few pounds into the ground. forever.
- find new running paths that make me smile
- enjoy the outdoors more and more each day
- have runs without my music
- find my confidence
- love nature
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ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I love you.
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