my FRIENDS

i love my friends. for some reason i find it necessary for me to be uber protective of them. i don't know if it's because it took me so long to make friends outside of the office or if it's because i don't like to share.

i think other people could probably admit it. it's not something i'm proud of. it's something i'm honest about.

i think that i like having someone who i can complain to about whatever i want and they won't judge me.

i don't know.
just thoughts.

i've been challenged and have learned a lot through this. when i lived in memphis i hung out with the same circle of friends. when i went to asbury i hung out with a couple of different circles and then in high school i hung out with lots of different people. but then in elementary school it was a ton of different circles. i think i wrote in my journal about the different friends i had.

i sometimes wish that all of my friends were the same group. and sometimes i think that's a stupid wish.

but for now i'm happy. i have friends who have graciously shared their friends with me and encouraged me to find my own. three years, well three and a half, of awkwardly finding my way, i have some of the best guides in the world...and best friends in the world.