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someone prayed for me this weekend.
i just know it.
i don't know the last time i laughed so hard.
felt so loved.
looked into the sky and felt as if i could fly.
maybe it was because i finally had some time off.

i saw my brother friday morning.
then i spent time with julie, her mama, finley and clive.
i'm disarmed around those kids.
if you know me, i'm a little anxious when it comes to kids. i feel like they know that i'm shaking on the inside...afraid that they'll know that i'm nervous around them.
there are a number of kids who disarm me. the way that elias remembers my name still blows my mind. the way elizabeth's voice sounds on the phone...the way she pronounces my name, stops me in my tracks. i could go on and on.

afterwards i spent time at the taj with brianna. we laughed a lot. i saw the guys from oxide. oh how i love them.

that evening was full of dancing and laughing. and a little bit of falling. oh liz. i think that dancing released something in me that's been missing. abandonment and pure joy. it was lovely.

then saturday. a bit of recovery. the gym. an eye appt. and spending time with julie and sarah landreth. that sarah girl makes me so happy. simple joy.

then that night...i don't know where to start. craft mafia. so fun. then juba with friends. the food took a little bit of time. but the conversation slowed things down. we enjoyed each other's company. and the people at juba took care of us. i wouldn't suggest the falafel sandwich...i think i want to try the lentil soup next time. anyway. they gave us a plate full of harrisa or falafel, not sure which one. this dessert was so sweet. it made my head hurt and my stomach swim.

and then today. i woke up with excitement. i was visiting a chuch with marcia and brittany. there aren't words to even articulate the excitement i still have. i've visited a number of churches in omaha and this is the first time that i felt at home in so many ways. the people seemed familiar, one woman does attend the Y with me, and the service seemed familiar. i sat with Jesus there. in the coffee and pastry time afterwards...the service beforehand...the conversations in the middle. the red door. i loved it. i even wore red shoes today. unintentionally.

AND then i went to lunch with my brother. then we saw a movie with brent. and now i'm resting before dinner with friends.

and i'm reading a really good leisure book. i need it.

could this post go on forever? probably. i should stop here though. concise later.