i held a baby

okay.
if you know me you know i have some issues with children. i get nervous holding them. they get all hot. they start crying for no reason. you can't reason with them. they kick my airplane seat.

the list goes on and on.

so. i've always held children at a distance, literally. i've never been one of those people who are magnetically drawn to just the echo of a child's soft cough from across the city...they instinctively know what to do.

that's where they get me. kids know i don't get them. they see right through me.

and i start sweating.

to give you a little history about this...one of my good friends in omaha had a sweet baby girl a couple of years ago. i went to the hospital with daphne. daph held the baby. i did not. i knew as soon as i would hold the baby i might, just might, drop it. i might get it sick. i might hold it the wrong way. i mean, i referred to a baby as IT a million times.

you get my drift.

so today ron brought in kira. and it happened. i was drawn to this little child. i couldn't help but say (over and over) that she was spring to me. it was weird. everything about her made me happy. even when she threw up on mandy - maybe i was happy she didn't throw up on me. :) but i actually offered to hold her. i walked her around. i looked into her blue eyes and watched how she would stare at huge photos of our friends from around the world. she would stare at me. she would smile when she recognized someone...she'd coo. she'd do all of those baby things.

it was refreshing to have a little human in the office. she was spring. just growing and learning and stretching for all to see.