bloggy blog

i haven't been blogging in awhile. the holidays have been a little busy, but that's no excuse. i need to figure out what i want to do with this blog. i enjoy writing and reflecting on my journey to health. it's been a struggle over the holidays...no surprise there. but that's no excuse.

so i'm excited for two things in 2010 in relating to health. 1. i'm taking the turbo kick training in march. 2. i'm doing trek the tower with my friend nick. we will be climbing stairs...as fast as possible. i hate stairs. but i know this is what i'm supposed to train for in 2010. that and another half marathon :)

do you have any goals in 2010? not resolutions...but things that sound like fun to do in 2010?

oh hello

i've forgotten both of my blogs. i'm sorry bloggy. i'm back. i'm enjoying winter so far - surprisingly enough. i've loved being married.

i'm still on this journey for full health. i've started an online Christian program that deals with addiction. i found it on someone's facebook profile and clicked on it. i have to admit i sort of went through all of the steps and got an account. then i immediately wanted to delete it. i couldn't find the delete button anywhere. shoot. so i had an account. and it was alright. i began, hesitantly, reading Bible verses and answering obvious questions. and then surprisingly, i saw things being uncovered in my life. i don't necessarily agree with everything about the program but i'm so happy that the Holy Spirit moves within us even despite us. in this journey you walk through 60 days with a mentor, each day filling out bible verses, reflecting on food, reflecting where you are. i've really been surprised at how i actually look forward to the mornings when i sit and reflect on where i am. my journey with food speaks to deep and dark places where i didn't invite God into...yet God continued to pursue me, every part of me....why? because God is love and God loves me. and i'm in this journey of allowing God love me and me loving myself. food has been my comfort in joy and pain and my friend in community and loneliness. but God has been there just as much, too, and even more. i choose God in my journey because God doesn't let me down. so i'm still journeying and i'm hopeful.

snow day

it has been such a treat to receive almost two snow days. i've appreciated the time off. we've cleaned the house. i shoveled the driveway for hours. i have a feeling that i will be quite sore tomorrow, but it looks like we'll be able to get out of the driveway.

here are some pictures from the snow.

health

i had a really interesting experience today. i have had a migraine for the past two days and i went to the gym to see if i could work part of it out. so i went to class early, walked on the treadmill some and then sat outside of the room. my head was pounding and all i could hear were these kids running around the third floor. they were screaming, they were laughing. they were chasing each other. they were catching each other.

my head was pounding.

and i wanted to run after them and trip one of them and teach them a lesson about running in hallways.

but then i overheard their parents' conversations.
i don't know how to get these dark circles away from my eyes.
you could try wax and cucumbers.
yeah i heard there's some good mud i could use.

so i sat there and thought about this interesting scene. kids who could care less about my migraine...running around and laughing...coupled with the conversation of their moms and their appearance.

i hope i can find that childlike joy in the midst of what we call life these days. and hopefully my laughter won't make anyone's migraines worse. and i hope that you, too, can find that joy.

hello familiar blog

it's been awhile since i've stopped over this way. how i have missed you. i'm on my second sick day of the week. well second and a half. i picked something up pretty disastrous this weekend. i thought it was food poisoning, but then i got a fever. i read on someone's blog that there's always a last meal before you get sick and that food poisoning is basically a myth. so, i'm at home. i love being married. i didn't realize how great it would be to just be able to come home to someone who will disconnect me from work, the gym or the stress of the roads. who knew.

i definitely became familiar with the newlywed nine. miami was fun. the food was great. the beach was beautiful. and i've paid for every single meal and dessert out when i've hit the gym. i had to lead a class a few days after returning. i thought i was going to die. i didn't. but every single day i have the choice to feed my body with good food...but also to feed my body with things that are more everlasting than the physical food. it's amazing how attached the spiritual and the physical are in a journey to full health. i make the connection sometimes, but lately it's become more apparent. i'm hopeful as i begin to consider whole health in marriage and family.

feeding on the body of Christ

each sunday the congregation at st. martins and parishes around the world share in the Eucharist. we say the same phrases as last week...and the week before...and the year before. yet each time we say those words, they come alive and become new to me. this past sunday we shared in fr. ron's last eucharist before his retirement. it was meaningful to share in a beautiful meal together.

as i continue this journey of whole health and living, i can't forget the direct connection to our spirituality and walk with Christ. we feed on the spiritual body and blood of Christ and that satisfies us to deep levels.

just some thoughts.

food for the soul

i went to a writing workshop this morning. liz' grandmother facilitated a lovely writing group with some friends. i didn't realize how much my soul needed to write and to connect with friends in this intimate way. it was such food for my soul. i hope to remember how to write more and more. writing has been more of a forgotten memory to me. when i write sometimes it feels like i'm trying to remember how to speak spanish. it's painful and familiar and sometimes too hard to work through. so i hope to fight for my love for writing.

so i'm sitting and eating some old chinese food. kenley wrote me a sweet anniversary card. three weeks and it's been the time of our lives. he's one of my favorite people of all time :)

love to you today.