being honest

i have to be honest.

i have cramps. bad cramps.

there are a few days a month when i feel like i'm going insane. i delete friends from myspace and facebook. i get into heated discussions filled with tears. i cry myself to bed. and then i look at my calendar.

so today i was at work. it felt like i was watching my life as if it were a movie. going through the motions, slowly. keeping up, slowly.

so i came home with my weird cough. i crawled into the corner of my couch. drooled and slept. and woke up with renewed vision and energy. it was the best nap ever.

i'm afraid of the combination of the heat at work, my monthly visitor and my weird cold sucked the life out of me. i can't shake the beginning of the cold i have. not sure how to explain it. but it goes in spurts. mean spurts. maybe if someone sent me orange juice i'd be better.

but i have energy for my prayer letter. that's exciting. :)