The life of a retailer...

I live the life of a retailer. I get my schedule for the next week the Wednesday before the actual week. I can't overly plan anymore. I sometimes work late shifts and don't eat enough. Last night I thought I'd eaten something during the day, but clearly at 7 pm when I had a sinking spell (that's what Mom calls it) I knew that the few chocolate covered almonds and latte did not cover it.

I'm up a little later tonight because for the past two nights I had to awake...it takes me a little time to adjust to finding the natural resting point in my evening. I'm getting there. I heard the distant horn of some trains. The traffic has slowed around our house. And I can hear two snores from our bedroom, the husband and the dog.

As I've started to unwind these days and months I started to become much more aware of the genuine and deep friendships and relationships I have with people around me – starting with my husband.

So long to the days when I would come home emotionally spent and drained to the point of emotional exhaustion.

And hello to the moments when I catch myself clasping my hands and jumping for joy at a simple and much needed addition to closet. (I got home last night or some night and noticed that my closet was lit up...I usually use my cellphone to fumble around my closet in the morning. K installed a simple lantern and now I can see!)

I catch myself feeling like I just got married...maybe this is normal, who knows, but I feel like each day as I feel more and more like myself...I'm falling more and more in love.

The life of a retailer will do that to you...it's caused me to evaluate what's happening around me, in my life and to those around me...and I feel a new sensitivity and intuition and appreciation for what's happening around me.

I feel like my senses are reawakening and I couldn't be more excited.